I know this blog is a little later than I intended it to be, and although I initially wanted to dedicate this whole blog to Halloween I have decided to do something a little different. I am still posting a page dedicated to Halloween which will showcase some amazing makeup talents however this blog will be dedicated to mental health.
The biggest lesson I have learnt in life is that beauty and a smile does not reflect happiness.
I can put my best face forward everyday, makeup done, smile plastered on but that doesn’t mean I’m happy, and it’s so important that we realise and recognise this. The past two weeks have been horrible for me, nothing in this time frame has happened, no one has died, I have everything I need and want, my boyfriend has been amazing, supportive and loving but, that doesn’t stop my brain from being in overload, over thinking, doubting, messing me up. Mental health is different for everyone but I want to share with you how I’ve been feeling in the hopes that you reading maybe relate and realise you’re not alone.
There is such a massive stigma behind mental health it’s made out to be this thing we shouldn’t talk about, but we should, sharing just once can educate others and save lives. Anxiety, depression and other mental illnesses are killers. They kills my mood, my confidence and my happiness. Over the past two weeks and really on and off over the last few months sadness and low self esteem along with constant anxiety has held me back a lot, it’s slowed me down and it’s dragged my mood down.
With everything currently going on in the world and the current pandemic mental health is something that seriously needs to be addressed. It is not easy staring at the same walls, thoughts cloud your mind, memories fog you up, your imagination creates scenarios that aren’t real and then these cause you to become upset, anxious and hurt by them. The lack of fresh air is exhausting, and the lack of interaction is haunting.
Following the government guidelines and rules set in place are so important to keep you physically safe and healthy and those around you the same, yet being physically safe and healthy isn’t stopping your mental health from declining. For me it’s the quiet that hits home the most, it’s deafening. I work from home which I’m so lucky for during these times and I’m so grateful to continue working- my boyfriend has managed to keep his job also and he works split shifts which is fab we’re grateful for the income. However when I’m sat alone at home and he’s at work and I can’t have family or friends over and my only interaction is a phone call here and there I get so lonely, it becomes quiet and my brain has a meltdown.
These are my worst times.
I’m a very upbeat and happy person until I’m alone and then all of a sudden I’m a crying mess. I’m sharing this with you not for sympathy but to show you, someone who potentially is feeling the same, or someone who also gets low points that you are not alone. This time in our lives is so hard, we’re going to cry, we’re going to sit alone, it’s going to be hard. Family are going to miss out on milestones, births, deaths and it’s horrible. BUT THIS IS NOT FOREVER.
There will come a point so where you will be able to hug your loved ones, you’ll be able to share magical moments and catch up on things you’ve missed. Use this opportunity to contact a friend you have spoken to in a while or family check on them, please see if they’re okay, a lot of the time people suffer in silence so make yourself known, show you care. Try that little bit harder.
I am here for anyone struggling I will help whatever way I can, please reach out. You are NOT alone.
This is a deeper blog, don’t feel pressured to read it. I hope sharing this will help or enlighten you. Feel free to share and get in touch. I know this isn’t makeup related but I feel inner beauty is just as important and how can you truly feel beautiful and happy if you’re struggling?
I will also be creating a new Halloween themed page, showcasing some of my favourite makeup looks from influencers and artists on Twitter, Pinterest and Instagram- keep an eye out for this.
Lots of love, stay safe x
Beyond Beauty 